ShattEredPieceS

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

PisSeD ofF.

30DeC2009..WeDneSday..Mid Valley

the day i met my chatrooms frens..it was exciting but at one time..i felt a bit confuse with myself..i felt angry at my dad..i told him earlier that i want to spend the whole day with my frens.dem. he kept asking me to come back.calling n calling until i fed up. so i came home early. i dun hve enough time to watch my frens playing bowling.sigh.i was frustrated.dem really frustrated.coz its not easy to meet them! they came all the way from kuala trengganu just to gather with us!
room ganu 1 = room selangor 7....

hoping that the time we spent was enough to know each other n tighten our relationship. but i cant.i am really sorry guys!i hope we can meet more next time..do come visit us often! we greet all of u with open arms:D >:D<

i dont want to write detail on what my thoughts are playing right now.its a sensitive issue. let just keep it to myself.

let me share an incident in the bus i face on my way back home.

when the bus arrive, its already full. every seat in the bus were occupied. so i just standing (eventhough my legs cramp already!). i looked around the seats existed.majority of them were guys! looked perfectly healthy plus they even took a sleep. i almost took a video of a man in there..he slept too well until he drops his mouth water(airliur..hahaha..btol ke aku ckp ni???hahahaha)


guys..where's ur manners?? there are some old folks standing in the bus. but nobody want to give a seat to them..poor malaysian people! where is the manners we trying to keep n care? where is the truly 1Malaysia that been provoke all over the nation? enough this all bullshit. 1Malaysia is like nothing..people still dont care bout each other. young people dont have respects towards adults. dats wat i think the first time i saw those situation.

turn back to me. i did felt angry to my dad. do i have the respects toward adults??
im speechless.. talk to myself. dont u dare trying to judge people before u see yourself first! im sitting my self on the stair in the bus. thats the only strategic place to clear my mind from crazy toughts. im into my world again. watching peoples. staring the moment which i dunno when will i see again afterwards.

My WorLd

life becomes miserable when lots of barriers pops up. everybody will face it. including me.

so many types of barriers come..due to love..money..family..work..study..urgghhh!!

y? why?? God makes all this for us?? y should we have it? why we cant have a happily ever after life like in the story...

There must b a reason..

god wants to tell us..

if people betray u..God never betray u

if u dont have money to live...God show u the way to preach..

if ur family didnt take a good care on u..He the one who care for u soo much..


im saying this to encourage the lost of me..im lost..searching..searching for i dun noe what??

crying is just a way to relief everything..i need to b tough at the moment..

the moment i try to hold tight to sumone's arm..

but i cant.

hoping time will tell everything.

hoping hopes will cure the sorrow.

hoping life will begin without pain.

through out the new days of new year.

will i ever b strong enough to succeed?

will i cure the bleed in my broken pieces?

StrOng.HopE.

tangles together.

i rather die..i rather flew away..now im off..into my world again.