what a crap..
thats all i can say..
im a bulshit or what?
willing to do anything just to be near him.
willing to accept everything people had thrown to me..
the cursing..the lies..the gossip..the stone fires...
i wont bother any accusation..
i may ignore all the fucking matter...
all i want to do is be with you..cant u see im here?
just for u?
cant u please appreciate it honestly?
i mean ..i want u to be u..
i want u to be honest..
i dont want u to feel im forcing n whatsoever..
damn im stupid..
boy..i hate you!
but i truly love you!
i try everything to make myself hating u..
but i cant..
the more i try, the things bout u keep coming n coming..
friends said anything..i accept everything..
i told them, "guys, i know him better than u all..so please back off"
a long long long long sigh!
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO TO WIN YOU
TO GET YOUR HEART..
TO BE NEAR YOU ALL THE TIME...
the serenity is gone...
no more motivator!
i cant accept them anymore..
i feel useless.
i feel like a snail waiting to be poured by salt because of cannot try harder to run..
im a snail.